The Wish & The Battle Inside

Time and again life taught me various lessons. Some lessons I accepted with grace and some I just could not digest. I saw good things happening to bad people and bad things to good and sometimes I questioned myself who am I to decide who is bad or who is good. But one thing is for sure that people get what they want if they work arduously for it, whether they be good or bad.  I have known people who need people just in their bad times. I have seen people talk about love and friendship without realizing that they don't know any of it. I have met people who remember close ones when they need money and after that write them off as 'their' bad debt. I have seen lovers being unfaithful and swindlers in cloak of saints. I have seen leaders robbing the nation and children deceiving their parents. I have seen criminals killing the innocent and the innocent being nailed to death. Tell me one reason one reason why should I not stray? Why should I not learn the life's lesson? ...

It was my childhood friend Anurag's wedding and I thought to give it a miss. As my family was going, so I thought I can just excuse myself and keep on with work. A day before his marriage he called me up and asked, 'Rajat, kaha hai tu?' and I replied that 'I'm so sorry yaar, I could probably not make it though I'm trying' to which he replied, 'aisa mat kar yaar, shadi baar bar nahi hoti, tujhe aana hi padega kaise bhi karke, tu aa bus'. I rushed to grab the tickets for Indore and left for his wedding. Had I missed his wedding I would have missed a lot. It had that silent sharing of happiness, a very genuine feeling of friendship and the joy of being in my friends wedding. He kept me close and held my hand when I went on stage. At phere and shadi he kept looking at me from time to time, as if saying to me 'accha lag raha hai ki tu dekh raha hai ki meri shadi ho rahi hai'. Heartfelt... every single moment. Then I returned to Pune and went to s...