Read Life

I was about to finish reading 'A Thousand Splendid Suns' by Khaled Hosseini today but with just 30-40 odd pages remaining I gave up. My heart was so burdened that I could not take it anymore, it almost felt like my heart crying and a thousand tears flooding it. This is one reason why I like reading... I like reading for understanding life. As life has uncountable experiences and even in a million lifetime I will not be able to experience all. Through books I can feel, I can feel the pain, the tears, the joy, the defeat, the victory. I am very selective about what I read and I get connected to books and the characters while I read them. I often find book sharing my emotions and touching me in a way that I almost find myself as a character in the book, living, breathing...
In this book that I read, I found such a desperate struggle for life and such endurance of a human being that I could not surmise it in words. You have to read it and feel it for yourself. And read you must for this is something real and no fiction but just the characters have changed. And while I am just writing it down I can not help and feel what Mariam and Laila will endure next and what will be there final destination. Signing off for now probably I'll be able to gather courage and complete reading this book soon.

Where There Is A Will

Jah chah waha rah (where there is a will, there is a way)... I have heard this one way back in my school, read in stories about it and always thought of it to be some alien concept as I had a will but I missed my way. When I was in school and I got first ranks, I got this good feeling of all the things that I could be and then I never became any of them. I was just carrying my dreams but stuck with life essentials not knowing how and when to make them real.
After I landed up in my new job I decided to fulfill the dream that I carried with me for long.. to teach.. to teach with a motive to achieve still something bigger, to educate the countrymen in an attempt to make my country a better place, with good government, clean environment, peace-loving people and much more. It's a little beginning at the moment with the kids of a school but I am gaining a lot of confidence and belief with each passing day. The bunch of kids I started with were very poor in studies and after putting in a lot of efforts, one day when they were still not able to do simple additions I started to worry and changed my approach, I sat with them counted with them every single digit and reached the answers. A few day of this exercise with the kids and some homework in the end; again, when I started to feel that this could not be achieved, the weakest of the lot, Lalit surprised me with his flawless addition. He could actually add the numbers, he could carry and do the additions and he did got all the sums correct. That day I looked up at the sky and thanked God, I thanked Him for as a human I tend to lose hope but He with His miracles bring back hope alive in me. I was rejuvenated and for the first time I felt that I will be able to find my way.. because where there is a will, there surely is a way and even if on this way lies some darkness, at the end of it will lie the divine light, there lies an extreme sense of joy, of achievement.

P.S.- The pic is a wrapper of the gift that Omkar brought for me-a pen, I returned him the pen and kept the wrapper with me. It looks like a ruby studded bracelet with my name engraved :)